Citation: 1177.0001. "A Whisper of My Name: An Experience with Diphenhydramine (exp32186)". Erowid.org. Jun 12, 2007. erowid.org/exp/32186
I awake wishing I was dying or dead,
The painful memories won't leave my head,
It seems that sleep brings no nourishment,
To another day in depression I'm condemned,
Eventually allowance money lands in my hand,
I dream while I wander through the land,
Until I wake up and loathe sobreity,
And lust for my return to insanity,
For that's where I'm safe from myself,
Protected from a life turned into Hell.
I'm awake yet I'm sleeping again,
The pills are barbecuing my brain,
I see an old friend from long ago,
He vanishes and I'm left alone,
Watching the ground move and breathe,
Noticing the faces talking on the trees,
Strange distortions move across the walls,
Vapours drift up from the tiles in the halls,
I can't end a sentence without forgetting,
I don't even understand what I'm saying,
A whisper of my name from far away,
While walking where the children play.
I am only a husk in this altered state,
A brainwashed cultist of the Gravol escape,
I crawl into bed dried out at the end of the night,
I enter a coma and wake up in the afternoon sunlight,
Only to feel a lot worse than I did before,
So I purchase another package from the store,
And I enter into the dream for another time,
While the addiction slowly consumes my life.
Everything slipped away piece by piece,
And in a homeless shelter I now sleep,
How could this happen to me?
God opens my mind and I see.
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