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Climbing the Drugs Ladder
Heroin & Buprenorphine
by n00bian
Citation:   n00bian. "Climbing the Drugs Ladder: An Experience with Heroin & Buprenorphine (exp24623)". May 11, 2006.

      Pharms - Buprenorphine (pill / tablet)


This isn’t so much an account of an individual experience rather a short story about how drugs have affected my life.

I am a 25 year old male who grew & lives in the suburbs of London, England. I grew up within a stable family life in a quite well-off area, the perfect 2.4 children family. I smoked my first spliff (reefer) at 15 years of age & graduated up through my teens trying all the mainstream drugs in the following order: Alcohol, Cannabis, Speed, LSD, Ecstasy, Cocaine, Ketamine, Crack & finally the big ‘H’, yes heroin! I had already discovered that I leaned towards the depressant drugs (except alcohol) & when I first ‘Chased the Dragon’ (I have never injected & I never intend to) I had reached the pinnacle of pleasure. I have always loved cannabis & when I took the two together I would drift for hours, the feeling is virtually indescribable but the saying ‘wrapped up in cotton wool’ sums it up. Any pain I have, be it physical or mental just disappears, time doesn’t seem to exist & every so often I would realise just how detached from the ‘real’ world I would be.

The first relationship with heroin was very pleasurable (apart from the nausea) & as I was getting it through an unreliable source, I would go quite a few days without & hence I never became addicted. My source was a work colleague who happened to be the boss's son. I finally left that job & never stayed in contact with him.

The second time I used heroin was to drown the mental pain of losing a girlfriend I loved (in other words she dumped me). I would use it in the morning, during the day at work & long into the early hours. Needless to say, I lost my job because I was so wasted that I couldn’t even write properly. I got in debt, lost loads of weight (I was skinny to begin with) & after 7 months of hell I finally went through detox with a case worker & 2 weeks worth of drugs to counter the withdrawal symptoms but not enough Valium, I can never have enough Valium. I finally got myself together but only after a stint in a psychiatric ward because after withdrawal depression & boredom sets in.

It is now 2 years after I went through withdrawal and I am now on another detox programme. The worrying thing is I had no reason to use again but without a shadow of a doubt I know I cannot handle heroin. The drug I am using to come off this time is Subutex (Buprenorphine) & I must admit it is quite remarkable apart from the first day I took it. It puts me into withdrawal as the Subutex takes over the opiate receptor & gets rid of any other opiate already attached to it. The next day I felt totally fine, no cravings & no sickness. I take 8mg a day but can easily get by on 4mg, especially as when it is used as a painkiller at only 0.4mg. I don’t get any real buzz from taking it but then I am opiate dependant. It isn’t absorbed into the bloodstream very well so I have to let the tablets dissolve under your tongue which takes about 15 minutes. Of course I have crushed them up & used them intranasally which gives me a mild euphoric high a bit like a small dose of a benzo.

I have an addictive personality. Moderation & variety is the key I will try and live by those words for the rest of my life.

Peace to you all.

Exp Year: 2003ExpID: 24623
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given 
Published: May 11, 2006Views: 22,507
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