Citation: yvette176. "Anxiety and Excretion System Hyperactivity: An Experience with MDMA (Ecstasy) (exp23068)". Erowid.org. Feb 16, 2006. erowid.org/exp/23068
I was given a 'mitsubishi'-looking pill by a friend of mine. I took it at a well-known dance club in chicago on gay night. I thought I would have a well-being feeling, would feel connected, and would have an experience similar to other first-timers that had a positive experience. The crowd on gay night is very accepting (and, from what i've heard, very heavy X users), so I thought I'd be okay, surrounded by 'family'.
In fact, it was the opposite. When it hit me, I immediately became anxious, like 'this is horrible - when does it end?' my digestive system began functioning on what I can only call a 'hyperactive' state - I had to use the bathroom three times in one half-hour. The toilets were so crowded I had to cut in line, apologizing, and then immediately go to the back of the line to use them again. I was so tense I thought my brain was going to explode. Worse yet, my car was in a parking lot that would close at 5am, and if I didn't get it out of the lot, it would get towed. This meant that I had to drive. I could have drove it about 100' to street parking: even if it was an illegal spot, and I got ticketed, that was better than getting stopped while driving while toasted.
But because I was toasted, I didn't think correctly, and I decided to drive. This was worse than any acid trip I ever took in the '60s. [Erowid Note:
Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!]
I drove to a hotel not far away. It was the worst drive of my life. If a cop had stopped me, I would have been arrested. For me, based on my sexual orientation and gender, that *could not* happen. I didn't think about what to do with the car before taking the X - *Big Mistake*. It was one of the most tense, anxious nights of my life.
At the hotel, within minutes *everyone* knew I was toasted. My pupils must have been the size of dimes. I went up to my room, went to bed, and just shook for hours.
Was it X? Was it speed? Was it cut with baby laxative? What was it? I don't know and I don't care. *I will NEVER take it or anything purporting to be it again*. Reality feels so good now, I hardly even drink, and take no 'recreational pharmaceutical' drugs whatsoever.
Some people say X is wonderful. I say the whole thing sucked. At the end of the day, it's your body, it's your brain, it's your life. Caveat emptor. Whatever you do, do NOT drive. Please!
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