Citation: Snail. "Lackluster: An Experience with Cannabis & MDMA (exp22918)". Erowid.org. Jun 14, 2003. erowid.org/exp/22918
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I've had four experiences with ecstasy over the past two years. I'm an 18 year old student who's dosed with a variety of different substances, but I'm really more of a dabbler than a regular psychonaut. Either way, ecstasy, which I tried for the first time about a year ago, never seemed to hold any interest for me. Unlike other patrons who've responded to the stuff with a large amount of enthusiasm and appreciation, I've had fairly lackluster rolls.
My first experience was in January of 2002 at a very small (eight people?) party in the Bay Area. I was invited along to go up to San Francisco with some friends, who were all high school seniors like me. All in all, it was a good day, and left me in a more adventurous mood than before. After returning from the city, they told me that they'd be having a party that night, and everyone was gonna be rolling. They were all fairly unexperienced with it. Most of them had tried it two or three times, but they were all absolutely in love with the stuff. They convinced me (with not much effort) to give up my hang-ups and try the stuff. From the way they described it, it sounded absolutely delicious. At the time, I was paranoid about doing anything but mushrooms. Everything else made me worry about all sorts of stupid death-scenarios in a fit of drug-induced panic. Ironically, I ended up hooking up the E, as their source was dry and I happened to know this homeless dude who worked at one of those chain bookstores, as he was screwing this 14 year old girl I had been friends with for a few months. Great source, right?
That aside, we dosed in the evening at about 10 PM after chilling for a few hours. I was kinda stoned at the time, after smoking a little a couple hours before, but that was wearing down quite a bit. Anyway, I started to feel the effects of the E about an hour after ingesting. It was a stimulating relaxation, with a pronounced body feeling of comfort and lightheadedness, as well as a tingly tension in my muscles. It wasn't at all unpleasant, except for a little bit of a racing heart for the rush of the onset. A friend of mine called me at about the time I was first feeling it, and I talked to him for about half an hour, which is normal for me. I spent most of that time lying down by myself on a mattress in the room of the party host's little sister. I found myself friendly, sociable, and honest. However, I was by no means feeling all that wonderful. It didn't feel like anything special. I joined my friends in another room, where I piled onto a twin bed and cuddled with four other people.
It was nice to be there, but I feel like I was happy just because my friends normally wouldn't be comfortable with non-sexual physical contact, which is something I truly treasure. It's nice to feel like you can reach out and touch someone without them thinking that it means they're gonna sleep with you, when that's the last thing I want. After about an hour and a half of the roll, it was pretty much over. I was in a decent mood, and was enjoying the company, but I was no longer rolling. Everyone else lasted another couple hours, and a couple of the most experienced ones told me it was the best roll they'd ever had. At about 2 AM, I was ready for bed. Normally, I'm an insomniac. This night, however, I slept like a baby. I was very physically comfortable, whereas I usually spent a lot of time tossing and turning, feeling stiff or achey. I woke up the next morning, feeling pretty decent. Not upset at all. Just kind of zoned out and bored. Went home and chilled for the day, but was kind of disappointed that I didn't fall in love with the drug I'd heard hyped from coast to coast. What was special and amazing for everyone else managed to be nothing but 'nice' for me. Like vanilla ice cream. Not nearly as euphoric as mushrooms, and not even in the same league when it comes to intellectual stimulation.
I rolled a few times since then, but that's another story, for another time. Editor: Thanks for bothering to read this experience, which could only stand out because the effect was so boring and ho-hum, rather than being negative or mindblowingly amazing.
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