The Quickest Way to Kill My Brain
Citation:   goatee92. "The Quickest Way to Kill My Brain: An Experience with Gasoline (exp19804)". Jul 3, 2005.

  repeated inhaled Inhalants (gas)
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Inhalants sounded like fun (and as it turned out, they can be). I was staying up late the night before I was going to have my wisdom teeth removed. I had been having to stay up late to sneak out and smoke a cigarette, as my family does not approve. I was looking forward to trying Vicodin in the days following my surgery, but that's not important for this story. I was looking to take the edge off, so I had indulged in some tequila and cranberry juice (just enough to be pleasantly drunk).

I had tried huffing gas for the first time the previous day. It was interesting, I got the echoing effect, and of course it wore off quickly. Tonight, I was bored and anticipating insomnia, so I went and got the bag of gas from the night before. I started breathing in the fumes slowly (for those of you who don't know, I can't just take a big whiff and expect it to work, I actually had to keep your head in the paper bag and breath in and out several times). I got the same effects as before, but for some reason I wasn't satisfied. A few minutes later I did it again. This time, I began to notice how *easy* it is to just keep breathing.

There is not a lot of coughing or discomfort involved, so I prolonged by huffing.
I was beginning to feel scared, but a few minutes later I wanted to do it some more. I went into the kitchen, figuring I might spontaneously throw up or something. I just stood there huffing away; my knees shook a little, but I didn't feel loss of my motor skills. This is where it gets bad...

Seeing as how easy it is to just keep inhaling, danger becomes quick and obvious. Even as I stood there thinking to myself 'if I keep going, I'm going to die,' I did not feel any insistent urge to cease. Talk about impaired judgment. I eventually let go and fell on the floor purposely. I layed there feeling guilty and foolish. Though I didn't get any cosmic lights or life-flashing-before-my-eyes, I knew I had stared death in the face.

Granted, I'm hopeful that not many people die from inhaling gasoline, however, I'm almost positive that if I had kept going, I would have suffered permanent brain damage. Needless to say, I stepped outside to have another cigarette. I was so distressed I could barely sleep, and I still felt like I was missing several brain cells when I woke up the next morning. Luckily, I think my faculties are still all in order. I am never trying that again...

Exp Year: 2002ExpID: 19804
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jul 3, 2005Views: 2,692
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