DOSE:

repeated

oral

GHB

(liquid)

A couple of year ago during covid, I had a year with occasional GHB binges. I would go through 50-200ml in a few days to two weeks with months long breaks in between. At first there were no issues at all, but then I started noticing nights of insomnia after a binge. Then suddenly the last binge turned very scary.

I think I was dosing 100ml over the course of a weekend. When my order arrived by mail, I had just eaten a heavy meal but was eager to get high. With reduced effects because of full stomach, I redosed again and again. What I remember next is waking up at night in my bed feeling very alarmed that my breathing had switched to manual. I wouldn't breathe automatically anymore but had to actually consciously control breathing in and out with my mind. I slowly recovered with several hours of extremely unpleasant nausea but later finished my binge in the regular enjoyable fashion.

I did not know yet I had developed physical withdrawal after only a weekend of use. The first night after using I would lie in bed unable to sleep and have strange hallucinations across the edge of my curtain where the contrast between light and darkness was the highest. Everything bright would be much more pronounced, and my mind would project all kinds of stuff into it. I remember seeing dragons and other creatures on this edge of my attention. I was free of anxiety at that point. The hallucinations where actually entertaining to watch. The next day though I had a complete mental breakdown, certain of the delusion I had developed covid and would die soon. I behaved in a ridiculous way and called myself an ambulance. In the hospital after being tested and not really being taken seriously I returned home still not fully aware that I was still in the midst of GHB withdrawal. It really can be described as if the polarity has switched in my brain. What has been night was now day. When I was active during the day I actually felt relaxed and at ease, while at night trying to sleep the panic would creep in and send my nervous system into overdrive. I would have severe panic and called my brother to drive me to the ER again, where I came clear about my GHB withdrawal and hallucinations. They did several tests and asked me a bunch of questions. In the end I felt relatively in control, and they sent me home with two z-pills to sleep. The next night I had a bout of severe panic again. I would hear faint music playing that clearly wasnt there, and having a distorted vision of a demon sort of figure in my mind telling me to jump off my balcony. I went to the ER again to get some more sleeping pills. On the fourth night I returned back to normal and was able to sleep naturally again.

Overall this has been a very tough lesson, but insightful in the way it showed me the polar extremes of my GABA system. I have always been a very anxious person before. I feel I conquered my anxiety after experiencing this chemically unbalanced extreme terror. Even though I made a fool of myself, I survived going out into the world navigating the ER situations and subway ride home while withdrawing. It did put things into perspective. Still the experience was a point of shame for me for a long time, and only years later it dawned on me I might have been close to death during my overdose.

Exp Year: 2025	ExpID: 119292
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 35
Published: Oct 10, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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