DOSE:

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

180 lb

Two days ago I had a very powerful Pandora Star experience. Complete ego dissolution and finding God and being grateful for what it really matters.

Today again I did the Pandora Star of pineal gland activation. Also did several sensory deprivation at bathtubs at home.

So after the session of Pandora, in the evening I felt a sudden urge to take a Salvia trip.

I would have never mustered the courage in a million years to do it. I did Salvia thrice. Twice smoked 10 years ago and once quid two years ago. The first time I smoked Salvia gave me the worst paranoid trip of my life. Quid gave me nothing.

So I purchased 60X 1 gram extract. It read "Very very potent plant" and it was a black seedy powder like dark black pepper or sand almost.

I found a nice place in the park and made sure in case of emergency I can go back to car as a safe shelter.

I made a medium sized blunt and smoked. My heart started beating faster and I felt anxiety and rush of something happening.

Nothing. Absolutely nothing - other than a minor milf fantasy. Then I realized why it could be milf because it was the 'mother' energy. Anyway it was slightly sensual. But the sexual urge went away as I wanted my fantasy to be fulfilled to find a gorgeous milf live.

Anyway, earlier made an intention that 'go easy and gentle on me'. My set and setting was 'to walk with respect and trepidation' as I am entering spirit world.

Again felt absolutely nothing other than a bizarre act of phone losing internet connection upon typing in incognity "Smoked salvia felt nothing". Anyway, I never listen to Hindi music and always electronic trance and hip hop. Felt sudden urge to listen to Pehla Nesha. After 15 minutes of "effect" thinning decided I was safe to drive. I was safe to drive from first time. But still I felt okay.

And had a fantastic pleasant experience listening to that ethereal song as well as from 1942 a love story.

Takeaways: When Ram Dass gave LSD to Neem Karoli Baba, Maharaji felt absolutely nothing.

I think since I already had 5-MEO like ego dissolution on a powerful trip of Pandora of emotional feelings coming from deeply buried subconscious and got poignantly aware of my shadow and unhealed trauma as well as the message that I "got it" that we are all divine beings and love and that I am God (even though I cried and denied and cried when I realized how beautiful my mother is and my love for my dad or what would happen if they passed away so be it both have NPD **under Pandora)... since I already reached mountaintop and liberated Salvia was gentle.

Alan Watts said after you cross the river you don't carry the raft with you. I am obviously not gonna sit here and say I am superenlightened. But the reason why people like me and others have paranoid trip is because they are not prepare to meet their shadow and unhealed trauma.

I on the other hand was ready! LOL!! I came prepared. I came prepared knowing I better get the ass kicking I deserve for being disrespectful on divine soil so I walked with trepidation and humility and gratitude and hence no effect felt.

Did I mention I smoked another mild blunt? So two blunts... 200mg.

Now it could very well be the potency was weak. But the thing is "What else is there to 'get'? If you wake up literally from bed, do you keep "waking up"? Again, I am not gonna act like a sanctimonious jerk thinking I am super enlightened.

But glad I felt nothing. It was a bummer as I spent 40 bucks. But oh well. It was also extremely bitter. Made sense why shrooms, aya, and this sage is so bitter is to "keep people away" and act as a ward or a boundary.

Anyway. Thinking back it was a pleasant trip. Almost like a quid. Perhaps since my 3rd eye is already awake where I have courage and fearless, I didn't fear Salvia and hence Mother didn't punish me.

Also why all of a sudden I felt urge to do Salvia? A. Cuz I was curious of having a wonky trip. B. Also because I became fearless.

I don't think I am gonna do it again. I also don't do shrooms anymore. Also after Pandora Star I felt ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, ZILCH, NADA, ZERO EFFECT on cannabis and caffeine. So it only made sense salvia would have ZERO EFFECT too, cuz when you already on mountaintop you can't go any further.

Perhaps I am nearing my spiritual journey end since I found my true nature and kensho that I am PURITY itself and DIVINE LOVE. Not in an egoistical way.. but in self-love, self-compassion, self-acceptance way.

I am still ranty online and attack others with ad hominem. But that is with a 'baba yaga' mindset from John Wick and not personal. Even I abuse others online I don't hate them.

Sure I am not 100% healed. Perhaps 83%. But had I had toxicity and negativity and hate INSIDE ME and NOT flushed out from cannabis, shrooms, Pandora Star, sensory deprivation, kundalini awakening... I would have 100% definitely felt the bad trips.

See guys, the point of bad trips is not to punish you but to wake you up to your true nature.

Finger pointing to the moon.

Blessed I am. So be you.

With love,

Kikimora

Exp Year: 2025	ExpID: 119009
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 43
Published: Jul 28, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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