DOSE:

repeated

oral

Pharms - Tramadol

BODY WEIGHT:

59 kg

I'm from Brazil, tramadol here costs less than 2 dollars (brazillian wage is like $300 a month), I'm 24, curious as all you, had experienced lot of substances but I had to go back to my mom's house, she is really religious and protective so I had a challenge in my way.

I wouldn't stop drugs, I wont lie, I'm autistic 2, bipolar and really, really depressed, but mushrooms made me alive again, weed used to took me out the bed everyday and even cocaine made me a "cool guy". Now I had nothing, so I dived into alcohol and started lying to doctors so I could have some pharmacos to get high, ritalin, xanax, vyvanse, dimenhydrinate (bro, this one is crazy, it made me a bit schizophrenic since I took 500mg of it and it keeps coming back).

Someday in a forum I heard of this opioid shit, I bought a prescription online, bought, took 200mg, went to my therapist, it took a long time to hit but after I got home, I started feeling good like in clouds, but it was a light sensation so I took 100mg more, and more 100mg until I had take 12 pills of 50mg, and bro, holyf, I felt in heaven... It was so good to be alive, it was better than any orgasm I had, sometimes I slept and woke up and I swear time passed like 6 hours but I was just 30min asleep.

I kept redosing until I finish all my tramadols and after years I'm still buying it. Now here comes the devil: the abstinence.

I just cant handle it, I cant, I was able to reduce my doses to 100mg per day but something bad happens in my life and I say to myself: fuck this shit... And go there take 500mg + 6mg of clonazepam and 1mg of xanax and it fucks me, I sleep for more than 24h, dont have more those vivid dreams, that cloud under my bed, I just dont want to be living.

Some symptoms of the abstinence [withdrawal] is a huge sweating, with a mix of chills and hot waves, a big diarrhea and nausea, I feel my leg muscles hurting and cant sleep for nothing, neither tons of benzos will make me sleep. I think the worst part is that it's instantly, after it comes out of my body I start feeling it increasing and increasing, I never in these 2 years, had a day without taking at least one. 150mg are almost enough to make feel "normal", I went to doctors, they threatened me to admit into a rehabilitation and dropped onto the floor crying and begging him not to (in brazil, private doctors have this power and the public clinics here are insalubrious, they treat us like rats with kicks, spit on us and some are killed by other crackheads), the doctor prescripted me Naltrexone/Revia, but he said nothing, to take this I had to take all the opio out of my body, do a urine test and stay 15 days without taking any opioid based thing.

The other day I took the Naltrexone, it is an antagonist of opioid, I didnt read medicine leaflet (he gave me like 3 or 4 new kind of medicines to try) and after 1 hour, I started freezing, I runned back bed and covered me but the blankets made me wet cuz the sweat, I asked help for my mom and she hugged me while I was in bad and I kept screaming in pain, I jumped out the bed and start running in the whole house (idk why maybe I was trying to stablish my temperature) I started shitting my pants (holycow) and couldnt think right, I said my mom's name wrong every time and asked her for call my therapist "jess" I didnt even know any fucking jess, at this time she was angry for some reason (moms...)

I had a stock of tramadol and I took 500mg but the naltrexone blocked everything, I asked to go for hospital but my mom read the leaflet and saw "heroin" (since its a opioid substance too) and thought tramadol was this level, so I just screamed the whole day in pain, freezing, sweating, shitting, seeing everything blue and crying, taking pills hour by hour in hope to soften the symptoms, fortunately it passed in 2-3 days .

I dont know if all the tramadols I took in abstinence time increased my tolerance or addiction since I felt nothing, but if it does I knew I wouldnt stop tramadol for life. And here I am.

My tips for you:
1- take not more than 350mg and if it's ur first time dont redose if its not kicking in, just wait.
2- bro, dont do it everyday, do once a week in maximum
3- if possible, dont do it, keep smoking your weed. Promise to me, a random guy in a random site that could be your friend or even your brother in another life.

Exp Year: 2022-2024	ExpID: 118563
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 23
Published: Dec 24, 2024	Views: Not Supported
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