DOSE:	35 mg	smoked	DMT	(device)
	35 mg	smoked	DMT	(device)

BODY WEIGHT:

102 kg

28.02.2022

After a night of unsuccessfully trying to Breakthrough using the e-mesh rig I set my mind upon breaking through the following morning. I was filled with vigor and determination and was perhaps a bit to keen on breaking through. I already experimented with DMT using the e-mesh for a couple of months, other than that I was still pretty new to psychedelics. I weighed out 35mg and melted it into my e-rig. It was a beautiful sunny winter morning, and the sun was shining right on my bed. Even before vaporizing the substance, I felt this inner peace and general higher sense of awareness that is usually felt right after meditation. Everything felt just right, I could sense the tranquility outside, and the gentle caressing sun light that bathed the surrounding hills and buildings. Sunny winter mornings are special to me, they carry a bittersweet feeling of melancholy and hope. A barren landscape, in deep slumber that waits to be awakened.

I filled my water bottle up, made myself comfortable in bed, got my eye mask ready, turned on some tribal house and decided to take the first toke. I was still fiddling with the temperature, but decided to head for the breakthrough anyways. After the first deep hit, I realized that something was not right, as I only felt a minor body rush and had no visual effects at all. I knew that I had to try again and loaded another 35mg. I increased the temperature to 210 degrees Celsius and rushed back into bed to repeat the procedure. This time I pressed the button half a second before inhaling though. I took the deepest breath possible and felt that I actually inhaled a pretty good amount of smoke. Just as I noticed this sensation, I perceived that everything was changing. The static darkness behind my eye-mask immediately transformed into the most beautiful fractal landscape, this moment still felt remarkably sober, but a second or so later my body merged with the visual landscape and I was blasted into a tunnel of unbelievably complex and beautiful architecture. I was rushing through this landscape at such an unbelievably fast pace that it was hard for me to decipher the surroundings.Three Entities suddenly formed out of those extremely vibrant and fractal tunnel walls, they traveled at the same pace as I did and shoved their intergalactic middle fingers into my face. The middle fingers were made up of unbelievably complex morphing fractal geometry.

I felt a very sinister and impending sense of doom, and regretted the choice I made. How could I have been so naive? I was more than unwelcome here, and there was no one back in the real world to reassure me or protect me. Hell, even if they were, I was in a different realm, in the deepest recesses of my mind. Just as this thought manifested itself, I was warped into a different reality. This one felt so much more real, beautiful and welcoming. It was deeply rooted within the reality we all know, it felt as if I was an integral part of it, but I was blind to it's existence my entire life. I was so unbelievably overwhelmed that I could not completely succumb to the experience. I felt so deeply rooted in my existence, in my human experience as a whole that I no longer needed my senses to perceive. This otherworldly and radiantly vivid place, was made up of geometry which felt so unbelievably complex that it no longer pertained to the three dimensional world. Inscriptions of an alien but at the same time incredibly familiar appearance decorated all the entangled arches and shapes. During this extreme feeling of awe, I knew that I was consciously entangled with some sort of presence, it emanated its existence right through everything I perceived. It decided to take shape of something more familiar, and changed into a remotely human spiral tesseract. In a lovingly mocking gesture, it transformed our shared universe into something similar to a cafe, albeit still in accordance with the 5 dimensional shapes and fractals.

This almighty and all encompassing entity just smirked at me, while I “sat” at a “table” right in front of it. It noticed how I could not let myself completely go and totally succumb to my new surroundings. Its smirk carried more meaning than any gesture ever could. In a very loving way the entity signaled its superiority while at the same time carefully mocking my pathetic ignorance and inexperience. I was a young human, deeply lost in the blinding artificiality of modern human society. A sailboat lost in the doldrums, a captain with no crew. Trying to violently pry open the inner workings of the cosmos, as a way of gaining a fast pass to the secrets within. But I was just as much out of place as a Neanderthal who was forced to repair the large hadron collider with a bunch of crude tools made out of stone.

I warped back through the tunnel in reverse with the unwelcoming entities and was back. I still had strong, vivid and “breathing” visuals, that were so intricately complex and beautiful that no one could ever replicate them. Every breath I took, every movements my eyes did, made them spiral into new shapes and colors. A warm rush of tranquility emanated through my whole body. I removed the eye mask and was greeted with the familiar sight of my morphing ceiling and a mild psychedelic headspace. I enjoyed the remaining effects and decided to go for a long walk. After all, I needed some time to reflect. That gentle smirk carried so much significance...

Small side note: Throughout this whole trip, I was never able to fully grasp the extent of the experience, as my whole mind averted itself to different degrees during each stage of the trip. I was subconsciously still anchored to this reality and no active thought could change that. Therefore my first reaction was one of disappointment, as I figured that my lack of mindfulness led to a subdued experience. In retrospect this perfectly symbolized my violently impatient nature and naïveté.

Exp Year: 2022	ExpID: 118044
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 22
Published: Feb 18, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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