DOSE:

oral

Products - Other

(liquid)

BODY WEIGHT:

176 lb

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TLDR: I'm a true substance virgin. Learned a ridiculous amount of things - 25 to be exact. Applying what I learned immediately.

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I am straight edge. I don't drink alcohol, don't smoke, and don't even drink caffeine. So I don't even know what it feels like to be drunk or high. Deciding to take a trip on shrooms just shows how shocking this is.

After a few years of on-and-off researching how magic mushrooms are different than "real drugs" and the benefits everyone seems to be having - I realized THIS might be the only thing worth trying.

The catalyst to finally taking it was my best friend was visiting back in town and he had some liquid [vendor name redacted] shroom vials. Knowing I was going to leave the country soon to start traveling again, I figured this is a rare opportunity to do it with someone that I trust.

I prepared myself by reading many "first trip reports" where the person took 1.75g-2g (since that was similar to what I would be taking) and took the shrooms without other substances (since shrooms+other things is like a different drug on its own.) I wanted the pure experience.

I didn't eat anything heavy four hours before finally ingesting some coconut water + 1 vial of shrooms. We also put on some good soothing music by Odesza. After a while, I felt like gravity increased slightly. After a longer while of not much happening my friend showed me how if I focus on the carpet for long enough - then the fibers would start animating and moving with like ultra high-definition graphics at infinite frames per second.

When I closed my eyes, I saw saw some slight visuals of moving through an empty space. No big deal. However, after a few times of opening my eyes and talking to my friend and closing my eyes to go through space I quickly realized I was going to get MUCH more out of this experience with the closing of my eyes version. So I closed my eyes for most the session.

The first breakthrough is I cried after realizing how much my mother and ex-gf love me. I wasn't sure if I was imagining crying or actually cried - so I touched my cheek and felt the tears and was like "Ohhh shit, this is real". After taking a break to clean my tears and moving to the bedroom alone - I saw a concentrated beam of energy that would focus on certain aspects/people in my life. A soothing voice would talk to me about each thing. I couldn't choose what I wanted to know about, I just had to accept which topics were brought to me. After questioning this voice's authority I realized it's actually just much more mature version of myself talking to me. I was delighted to have learned everything I wanted plus much more! I thought I would learn just 1 or 2 things today but instead learned 25!

These are just some examples of what I learned.
1) Acknowledging I don't have the best memory and what I need to do to deal with it.
2) I learned what my true purpose in life is and that I've actually already have been doing it - but just need to do more of it now.
3) I realized not to try to get something when I meet people and instead just see what develops.
4) I learned exactly how to more effectively argue people with conflicting views without agitating them - which I normally do
5) I realized I need to be a better brother by being more involved in my siblings' lives.

I applied a lot of what I learned immediately. For example, after my experience was done followed #1 by writing everything down that I've learned so that I don't forget it later and can actively pursue it each thing since 25 is a lot of things.

After most of my trip was over, I decided to start taking immediate action like:
1) Messaged a guy I was recently arguing online on Facebook that day and apologized because there was probably something more in his life I wasn't aware of, and he immediately messaged back a heartfelt apology of his own.

2) Messaged a few more people that I thought needed urgent attention including my ex, and received warm responses from all.

3) I deleted Tinder and Bumble from my phone.

After a few hours, my friend and I talked about our experiences and he was happy that I got so much out of it. He was probably a little jealous that he doesn't get that much from his but I think I can now help him with that.

Exp Year: 2020	ExpID: 115036
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 35
Published: Jan 12, 2021	Views: 123
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