Citation: KLB. "Death and Rebirth in the Bathtub: An Experience with H.B. Woodrose (exp114860)". Erowid.org. Oct 19, 2020. erowid.org/exp/114860
I experienced the effects of LSA on two separate occasions within the same week in 2017 while on holiday from college. I had purchased Hawaiian Baby Wood Rose seeds and ingested 4 seeds by chewing and holding the seeds under my tongue for several minutes. The vasoconstrictive and nauseating came on first within about half an hour and intensified until the peak of the experience. Notably, the experience was one of confusion and visual distortion that made light almost too intense to bear. I spent the better part of this experience tending to my nausea and feeling that I would purge. No purging occurred, likely because I did not swallow the seeds.
The second experience involved crushing the remaining seeds and soaking in naphthalene for a day. The solvent was evaporated and the dried residue was packed into gel capsules. I took the equivalent of 8 seeds worth of capsules and prepared for the experience. Nausea and vasoconstriction began rapidly and built in intensity until it reached an almost unbearable level. I had not eaten that day, so I repeatedly dry heaved until the sickness passed and my sense of reality faltered. I lay in the bathtub with a small amount of warm water to comfort myself. I had turned the lights off as well. I closed my eyes and felt a presence in the darkness. I saw a dark entity with wide brimmed hat that told me it was there to kill me in a matter-of-fact way that was reminiscent of a grim reaper late for his next appointment and wishing to finish me in short order. And kill me it did. I lost all sense of self and then for a time my consciousness seemed to be taken off the grid entirely. Someone had hit the off switch on my entire being and the idea of being itself. There was nothingness. This was death.
I am not sure how long I lay there, but eventually my faculties came back online, one-by-one. First came the sense of touch and then the sensation of movement. I writhed around unaware of who or what I was. I became increasing body conscious and was able to just breathe and allow my brain to come back online. I was first aware of being alive, then of being human, then of being capable of language, then of being ME. I had returned to sober reality just as suddenly as I had left, but I will never forget this experience. I was shown what it felt like to die and how it felt to be reborn.
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