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Gradual Degradation of The Brain
Etizolam
by Jason
Citation:   Jason. "Gradual Degradation of The Brain: An Experience with Etizolam (exp114778)". Erowid.org. Sep 29, 2020. erowid.org/exp/114778

 
DOSE:
1 - 30 mg oral Etizolam (daily)

BODY WEIGHT: 185 lb


[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]

I started looking for anti-anxiety medications but more specifically benzos. I was scouring the internet looking for new "legal" highs. I have tried most of them ranging from basic kratom to 4-FMA. Then, I found Etizolam. At first I ordered a small quantity, maybe 100mg at a time
At first I ordered a small quantity, maybe 100mg at a time
, and I also took a small amount (1-2mg) and fall asleep very quickly. I would take it a couple times during the week. My addictive nature evolved and I was wondering if there were any recreational effects from a higher dose and there were. I then began taking 2mg a night, incrementally over the course of a few months I upped it to all the way to 30mg a night. Then, I slowed down to 20 mg a night. I was doing this for a year and a half, I think, I still can't recall my memories from the daze of etizolam.

Tthe entire next day I would feel relaxed. This relaxation slowly began to fade but the dosage stayed the same. I then realized I couldn't recall basic memories or conversations with coworkers, family, friends and if there was any memory there was no numerical order in which I could recall. I realized the psychological addiction I had to it when I began to lower the dose. The worst withdrawal I have ever experienced. Sleeping was now impossible, building on complex thoughts without forgetting was impossible, and recalling 2 years of my life isn't possible. It is only now as I am off it that I realize the damage that it has done. I don't pray, but if I did it would be for no one to try this brain-numbing drug. I abused it and it narrowed my thinking and impeded brain development and curiosity. It gave me a false sense of security that only when I was off of it did I realize what it has really done to my neural network. It fucked it up.

Exp Year: 2017-2019ExpID: 114778
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 26 
Published: Sep 29, 2020Views: 866
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Etizolam (568) : Not Applicable (38), Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), Post Trip Problems (8), Addiction & Habituation (10), Retrospective / Summary (11)

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