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A Decade Under the Influence
Ambien
Citation:   arborescere. "A Decade Under the Influence: An Experience with Ambien (exp114273)". Erowid.org. May 2, 2020. erowid.org/exp/114273

 
DOSE:
  repeated oral Pharms - Zolpidem (pill / tablet)
BODY WEIGHT: 220 lb
When I was 11 my parents began to both be prescribed Ambien. When I couldn't sleep they'd give me one and all would be well. When I was twelve I realized if I stayed awake, I'd TRIP BALLS. I tried to do a lot of weird stuff I almost entirely remember. I put my snake in weird places I found funny, binge eating cheese, weird stuff but I mostly recollect them. I started taking more and more, even stealing them from my parents stash. They caught on and kindly cut me off.

When I became fourteen I was prescribed it myself (ADHD, insomnia, etc) and took this opportunity to explore once more. Every month I went through the script in a few days. Three nights of blurry vision, good feelings, mild hallucinations. I LOVED when text started floating all over because I knew the fun was just beginning.

Seventeen and I'm with my now husband who wants me off of them. I'm taking the whole bottle in one night every month now and the mood swings are out of control.
I'm taking the whole bottle in one night every month now and the mood swings are out of control.


Nineteen and I'm prescribed them once more and I didn't tell him about it. One year goes by and he never knew. I didn't do it like I did but I still took it for fun.

Twenty one and my new psych prescribed it. It started slow, I did it right this time. Then I wanted to try again. Soon I'm waking up fighting with my husband because he didn't stop me from taking the whole bottle. Not because I could've died, because I couldn't get more highs.

I'm twenty three going on twenty four and I JUST stopped a few months ago. I took 5, so 50mg, and babbled then passed right out. A few hours later I wake up screaming that I just want to sleep so he gave me TWO. He left for the bathroom and I took the rest of the bottle. I remember none of this. He found me with the empty bottle and just laid me down and stayed up all night watching me. Two hours after I took the bottle I seized for ~30 seconds then slept for another few hours.

My brain has genuinely not been right since. Memory lapses I never had, fogs and funks, my mouth stops working right while I'm talking. Really scary stuff.



Exp Year: 2010-2020ExpID: 114273
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: 23
Published: May 2, 2020Views: 1,565
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