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Fifty Percent Heaven Fifty Percent Hell
H.B. Woodrose & Alcohol - Hard
by Stramonium
Citation:   Stramonium. "Fifty Percent Heaven Fifty Percent Hell: An Experience with H.B. Woodrose & Alcohol - Hard (exp110828)". Erowid.org. May 21, 2018. erowid.org/exp/110828

 
DOSE:
35 oz oral Alcohol - Hard (liquid)
  1 glass oral Alcohol - Beer/Wine (liquid)
  20 seeds oral H.B. Woodrose (seeds)

BODY WEIGHT: 90 kg


[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]

Back in 2013, I known like nothing about entheogen plants, just a fact that they can make people high and hallucinate, so I was kinda uneducated in this topic. As I never do anything like before beside alcohol and a very few joints of cheap weed, I decided to try HBRWR seeds.

On that day I was in a pretty depressed mood, as I just became unemployed. I hated that job, so it was also a good riddance. I still had got some cash, so I bought some booze: a small Ballentines whiskey with Coca-Cola, and a 1000ml can of Faxe beer, light lager with 10% of alcohol. I drank those without any problem. After that, the LSA thing came into my mind – why not raise the inebriation with a new substance – yeah, I know now how stupid and ignorant was that in the past, but as I said, I didn’t known much about these plants spiritual heaviness - to the mix? So a bought 20 seeds at the local head shop, as it’s a totally legal thing here. I chewed all them totally unprepared, they had a very hard coat so the seeds also broke one of my teeth. After this, I decided to go home. I become very sleepy and sedated because of the booze, so I slept an hour on a bench waiting for the rural bus.

When I came up the bus and take a seat, I started to feel a very heavy and painful nausea, along with fever-like hotness. I am that kind of person who never asks for help, but it was so overwhelming that I had to ask a passenger to open a few window in front of me. Things due a ventilation got a little better. After a half hour of traveling, I came home. My pupils were extremely dilated, it was pretty scary for me for the first time. I have mild acoustical and visual hallucinations like hearing echoing metallic sounds, seeing the speed of the light differently - sounds crazy, but it was totally real for me then. I had got a heavy tactile sensation, physical euphoria during this time. I started to rub my feet and it was a beuatiful thing, and things that I hate like dog barking, radio stations, street sounds, etc:. was a totally happy and funny thing for me. I started to make a phone call with a girl, and I said very nice and kinky things to her, but she didn’t understood much of it as my voice become so soft and inaudible that It became painful to listen to me, so I closed the call. I was in a very euphoric and dreamy state for an hour ore more, lying on the bed, listening to very minimalistic, noisy electronic ambient music. My hearing became so sensitive that even the lowest volume was huge. I was in a good mood, but than, I had to go to take a piss, but nothing came due the vasoconstriction. This made me worried and ill, as I tried to urinate so many times and nothing came. I gone back to my room, it was very late afterning / early night now. After the previous euphoric state, things gone bad since that moment.

My heart beated so fast like never, and I get a strange panic attack, and I just had to say one sentence to start an negative emotional avalance on that trip: I will die because of a heartache, or I can prevent it by killing myself. After this, I „chained” myself with my arms to the bed, and prayed for God that I will not ingest this material any more, just got me out of this suicidal thought loop. I came into a psychotic state, everything what was europhoric became scary and I felt an insane fear from darkness, so I kept the lights on the whole evening. I tried to vomit, but only a few seed coats come up with some alcoholic bowel acid. After I vomited and got tired of my lying rage, I finally become tired and slept for a few hours. On the next day I barely got a hangover, but I have a lot of brown dots on my face. After a research, now I know, that I didn’t do any kind of recreational rules (set/setting, trip sitting, right mood), knowning the negative side effects what make me panic.

To summerize this experience, there was some very nice body high for a few hours, interesting thoughts, and happiness, but after that the negative side effects made my panic, and I cried, vomited, and wanted to kill myself for the whole night. Also, 20 HBRW seeds was truly an overdose as much of the people recommend 5-8 seeds. Nearly 3 years after that, I tried LSA again with proper preparations and less dosage (100 Morning Glory seeds), and it was a much better experience than this.

Exp Year: 2017ExpID: 110828
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 22 
Published: May 21, 2018Views: 741
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