Citation: randyresident. "The Danger of Ignorance: An Experience with Alprazolam & Alcohol - Hard (exp110818)". Erowid.org. May 2, 2018. erowid.org/exp/110818
I was a freshman in college when I had my first experience with xanax/alprazolam, and it taught me a valuable lesson: ALWAYS research dose and interaction effects before trying a new psychoactive substance. The first day I first tried it, I had given money to my friend so that we could both pitch in to buy weed from our dealer, but he instead came back with 6 xanax bars, equivalent to 12 mg. I didn't want my money to go to waste so I decided to give it a try, but foolishly did not research the drug at all, not even its effects.
At approximately 4 PM, me and my friend decided to we wanted to really feel what this substance was all about after hearing rumors, so we decided to do one bar each and split another, bringing our initial dosage to 3 mg. If I had done research beforehand, I would've realized that 2 mg is about the max I should have done. Anyways my first experience ended up turning really strange really quickly, because I slipped into extremely 'gone' territory soon after my initial dose (about 20 mins), except I didn't even realize it. I didn't know what to expect from the effects at all, and simply waited for them to kick in. Well once it did, my initial curiosity surrounding 'how will this substance feel?' went completely out the window. I think it nearly impossible to gather any deep insights during a Xanax high, because all it just felt like emotional and intellectual dampening to me. I was very numbed out of reality, similar to the feeling of taking approximately 8-9 shots of alcohol, except less dizzy and sloppy perhaps. My judgement was basically completely annihilated. The judgement-impairment is far, far worse than that of alcohol in my estimation.
I can hardly remember any of my conversation with my friend, but we ended up deciding to hang out with another friend who was driving his car around the area. So now at 6 PM, 2 hours after our initial dose, me and my friend who dosed are seated in the back seat of our mutual friend's car. My extremely high friend then turned to me and asked 'hey dude, wanna do another?' I respond 'yeah,' except I wasn't even thinking through the decision at all. I had the mind of a sheep, simply going with the flow without a second thought. So we both did another bar each, bringing our total dosage to 5 mg, which is a ridiculous dose to do. Anyways our friend who was driving the car offered us some shots, and like sheep we complied without a second thought. If I had researched drug interactions, I would've realized that they both strongly enhance each others effects.
Well me and my friend then took 2 shots each, and immediately after my second I had blacked out completely and woke up in my own bed at 4 PM the following day. I had never blacked out in my life before that moment, so it was quite surreal to imagine how I got back to my room that night. Anyways my friend afterwards apparently ended up buying 3 grams of weed and smoking it all in that same night, except he didn't remember smoking it at all, predictably. He only found out because he asked another friend to kill all the weed with him in that one session.
So, I walked away with a negative impression of Xanax. I didn't like how dumb it made me feel, and how it practically made me feel like nothing inside. I didn't even know that I was high when I was beyond 'gone', which has never happened to me before or since. I'm mostly interested in how my thoughts change while on different drugs, and this one was by far the most boring to me. I was significantly less intelligent in practically every department, so I didn't really enjoy it at all. It comes across as a rather soul-sucking substance to me. One of my friends who became addicted to Xanax entered a psychosis following withdrawals from the drug, so it definitely has the potential to do some damage.
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