DOSE:

1 hit

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

125 lb

It was my friend Ben and I behind an old wooden shed, consumed almost entirely by nature. It was at the side of his house, so if we needed anything or anyone it would be right beside us at all times. At the back of the shed were two lawn chairs, and a number of cinderblocks acting almost as a table for us. On top of these cinderblocks was a bong with a bowl of Salvia 60x waiting there.

A bit of background information first. I had done Salvia 20x on three separate occasions, and I had an alright time with it. No real bad trips. However, after that time I seemed to develop a new view for things. Inanimate objects now held some sort of symbolic meaning to them that I had never perceived before, and it led me to try LSA. Now having done those psychedelics I was under the impression that I was ready to kick up the salvia dose to 60x.

Both Ben and I were terrified of hitting the bong first, so we tried to call another friend who would've been more confident in taking the first hit. However, he said he would be there in about an hour. At first, Ben and I tried to wait patiently, but then 15 minutes passed and I eventually just said fuck it. Ben was ready at his phone to record me taking this hit of salvia. Blowtorch and bong in hand, I took a deadly rip out of the bong and held it for ten seconds, counting the seconds in my head. Each number I counted pushed me further and further away from sanity until I was ready to exhale.

When I exhaled, Ben asked me how I was feeling, and the only two words I could say were 'not good'. After saying those two words, I was put in a complete trance where I couldn't see my friend, and I couldn't hear the real world. According to the video he took, after exhaling, I opened my mouth wide and put my head far back in the chair, and started to fiddle around with the armrests. In my mind however, nothing of the sort was going on.

Everything I stared at repeated infinitely out of my field of vision. Anything I grabbed had no feeling to it, and felt as though I was no longer in our universe. Something was calling out to me. A voice telling his invisible companions that he's trying to take me out of what he calls a 'false reality'. The meaning that I took from his voice is that I was not real. My physical body, and all that I've come to know was not actually real. As this man tried to pull me out of this 'false reality' (Mind you I was never able to see him), his monologue began to get much more frantic, as if he was losing me.

At this point, the peak was over, and it was only down from there. I still felt very attached to what I was seeing and was trying to grab something, or anything physical in order to stay in the real world. Anything I grabbed however, slipped out of my grasp until I was starting to come down to the point where I was able to grab onto something and actually feel it. That's when I knew I was real again.

However, I may never be the same after that trip. It changed me in a certain way. It made me think, what if there is a universe outside of ours, that is virtually at our fingertips, but we can never actually touch. I feel like Salvia put me into that world that I was never able to see, but wasn't long enough to keep me there. It was a hard trip, but one that was very well worth it.

Looking back at the videos that Ben took, I was apparently walking around his driveway, which is roughly 50 feet from where I originally started. I do not remember walking at all, and the last thing I remembered was being in the chair, trying to figure out what was going on. At some point in the trip, Ben said I was saying 'We gotta find the joble', which was pure gibberish. I thought that it meant the key to unlocking what we cannot see, but I was out of my mind and not really cognitive at the time.

5 minutes after the initial trip ended, I didn't have a personality. I was completely confused about who I was, what my place was, and was completely out of the loop on current events, which is not like me at all. I felt as though there was no care in the world, and my body was just telling me to chill.

24 hours after the trip, I felt normal again, almost as if nothing had changed, but I was just left with the lingering thought of remembering what was going on in the trip. It wasn't traumatizing, but it was definitely memorable.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110696
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: May 21, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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