DOSE: T+ 0:00			Pharms - Amitriptyline	(daily)
T+ 0:00	2 tablets	oral	Diclazepam
T+ 2:00	100 mg	oral	Pharms - Amitriptyline

BODY WEIGHT:

8 st

I am severely affected by an undiagnosed health condition, one of the most challenging symptoms is the feeling that my whole nervous system is in a profound state of shock. This makes human interaction deeply uncomfortable and unbearable at times. I have zero stress intolerance, I feel fragile and mousy and extremely sensitive especially to sensorial stimuli. It's awful because this is the opposite of my natural healthy state. Anyway, in an attempt to relieve some of these awful symptoms I have experimented with benzodiazepines. Benzodiazepines all have a very high risk of addiction, and withdrawal can be extremely difficult and symptoms can last for years.

Today, I woke up very late and it was nearly 3pm by the time I'd had breakfast. I have to be up mega early tomorrow morning, and was also experiencing this nervous system shock anxiety. So in the name of getting an early night, just a few hours after waking up, I decided to take 2 diclazepam, as I couldn't remember whether they were 2mg or 1mg (they were given to me in an anonymous tub). I seemed to remember that 1 tablet didn't do much the first time I took it. So took 2 this time at about 7.30pm.

By about 8.30 I felt much more relaxed and my symptoms were definitely soothed, but I felt no euphoria or pleasant wobbly feeling that I get with diazepam or other benzos. By 9.30 I was nice and chilled but still didn't feel like sleeping so I then took my usual nightly dose of Amitriptyline 100mg.

By about 10.30 I was feeling much more wobbly and pleasantly spaced out, motor functions reduced, feel clumsy but don't care because I seem to be able to bounce and wing it, kind of reminds me of a very mild ketamine experience, I feel like if important people were observing me I wouldn't be able to hide the effects, like I might appear mildly drunk.

I feel quite warm and fuzzy now, it's 11.30, not sure if it's the diclazepam with the amitriptyline that's causing the super wobble fuzz or whether the diclazepam just takes a while to reach full effects. It's a pleasant experience, but my short term memory is affected so have to keep checking that I've turned the cooker off. It could be possible to have accidents in this state due to how discombobulated I am.

I feel quite strongly affected now, so one might want to do research on amitriptyline taken with benzos, always start little to begin with and have a sober friend or sitter with you. I definitely feel like I can go to sleep now, just wanted to type it up quickly whilst I am having the experience. Night night folks!

Exp Year: 2016	ExpID: 108674
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 35
Published: Jan 10, 2017	Views: 4,716
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