Citation: Fapster. "Fapster in Wonderland: An Experience with Methoxphenidine (exp106528)". Erowid.org. Sep 14, 2015. erowid.org/exp/106528
This is a trip report for methoxphenidine written retrospectively. I'm a 24 year old male who had used it before. I have a background in medicine/psychology so thought I might be able to add some insight.I took around 150mg (not precisely weighed) with no other drugs. Dose was at 9pm, I'd last eaten a full meal at 7pm.
I decided to take this when alone in my flat mainly due to boredom. I've used it 4 or 5 times before, always with others. Initially, methox leaves a numbness on top of my tongue. Nothing for around an hour, then I first started noticing I felt not quite myself at around 10pm (1h in). A light, warm feeling came over me, I looked and felt flushed. Was watching TV in my living room, really into the programme and maybe a bit destructed by it.
Programme ends at 10.30pm and I get up to get a glass of water. Feel less coordinated than usual and things seem interesting. It's hard to describe at this point but I'd say it's like things don't seem as familiar as they usually are. Seeing the glass and picking it up aren't quite as smooth and linked as they usually are. There seems to be some kind of separation in terms of my visual impression of the glass, and how the glass feels in my hand.
Things are carrying on this way when my flatmate gets back at around 11.30pm! I was not expecting this. It was odd because I didn't want to tell him I'd taken anything and hadn't expected him to be at the flat that night. It's difficult to talk to him. I feel like I am being noticeably weird. I don't feel 'in' the conversation at all, my brain is off thinking about things like how weird my voice sounds, a dimple in his skin that I'd never noticed before, that I feel thirsty and need a drink, etc. We chat for 10 minutes then he goes to bed.
I go back to the living room where I was watching TV. His room is next to the living room. I watch another episode of the programme. I'm not quite as into it this time and am easily distracted. I usually don't like missing bits of a programme so if I want to do something on my phone in the middle of it, I'll pause the programme, but now, this doesn't even occur to me. I'm happy, chilled, just to go with whatever I'm doing at the time.
Around midnight, the visual changes get more noticeable. It's not hallucinogenic, I'm not seeing anything that isn't there strictly. But aspects of my vision go way way off. When I stare at my phone screen, it seems really far away from my face. The space between me and my phone is enormous. Is my arm really long now? No: I look at my arm and can snap out of it, but then I look at my screen and it's way over in the neighbouring village now. The writing is just as easy to read, nothing's moving around on the screen, there's nothing 'extra' there, but the things that are there are all distorted. I'm enjoying this and find it all so interesting.
This is when it takes more of a bad turn. I notice, having been staring at my phone for what feels like forever (time is also distorted), that the TV is still going. I check the time and it's 2am. 'Shit it's really late and my flatmate is working in the morning!' I don't know whether it's knowing this and worrying about the noise or what, but all of a sudden, the TV...is so...damn...LOUD. I turn it down quickly to a sound that feels better...'phew'. Usually the volume is on around 18 on my TV. If in trying to be quiet...maybe 14 or so. The volume now? 4. This unsettles me. It sounds all normal to me but it must be really quiet. Or is this just a particularly loud programme? I run over this in my head and it starts to stress me a bit. I'm definitely acting weirder now and I don't want my flatmate to wake up and come in. I turn the TV off and go into the kitchen.
I sit on the table and then notice the sound of the boiler. 'What the hell is wrong with it?' It sounds like it's broken. It's literally wailing, 'bvvvvvvVVVVV!' It gets louder and louder. I go into my bedroom and lie down and honestly, I can still hear it. I cannot usually hear the boiler in my bedroom.
I get distracted from the sound after it has peaked and go back to my phone. The distortion is amazing.
Things wear off at around 4-5am and I get to sleep just after. No weird dreams that I remember. Feel a bit more tired than usual when I wake at around 11am. Everything's back to normal other than the feeling of a mild generic hangover for a little bit. Didn't notice any 'comedown'.
An interesting note is that my experience matches the symptoms of something known as 'Alice in wonderland syndrome' and is a form of dissociative state which this drug is known to induce. This sounds like a bit of a bad trip and it was for a while when the sounds of things got loud, but I think it was because I was worried about making noise. Never had any paranoia or similar experience when I've had it previously, and generally I really enjoy using this drug.
Thanks for reading.
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