Citation: Daemons_Heart. "Blissed Out Egodeath at ElectricDaisyCarnival: An Experience with LSD, 2C-B & MDMA (exp106484)". Erowid.org. May 25, 2018. erowid.org/exp/106484
While attending Electric Daisy Carnival 2015, after one day of 20mg of 2C-B, and another day of candyflipping that gave me crosstolerance to LSD, 2-CB, and MDMA; I chose to candyflip again for the third day
I took the LSD right as I entered the gates and approximately 3 and a half hours into the experience I dropped the 2-CB (sic) and MDMA. Shortly after Calvin Harris finished his set; I experienced a state of utter bliss and ego death, wherein an expanse of visual closed eye hyperspace was reached. I found me repeating to myself with my eyes shut, 'I accept' 'I accept' 'I release myself' 'I allow myself'. Here, I confessed my sins to my consciousness and all of reality, and subsequently gave consent for the higher power or ultimate grand architect to embrace me. Then, the entities and universe accepted me into their presence and I realized that it was my duty as an ego less 'nothingness' to use my beautiful language to help others and spread the truth to all beings.
All the while over 130,000 human beings were rolling and raging hard around me, I took a sit on the floor and adopted a Buddhist meditative pose in the midst of the oceanic boundless chaos. I felt and saw the Indian God Vishnu as well, and subsequently identified as a creature similar to this God. When I finally managed to open my eyes and regain control over my shaking weak limbs I looked at the wondrous creatures around me and heard not a single sound but the music overhead, my own thoughts and that of the meditations around me. It was the most beautiful and magnificent of all the experiences in my life. On the day I die, I now know that when I approach the final nothingness and great void, that for at least one time in my life I will have already experienced what it was like to 'die' and be 'reborn'. As Socrates said thousands of years ago, all one ever does in life is prepare for our eventual death. This practice I now have done. I am afraid no longer, only free.
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