Citation: Gregjr. "SHOW ME GOD: An Experience with DMT (exp105205)". Erowid.org. Jun 6, 2020. erowid.org/exp/105205
||(powder / crystals)
||(powder / crystals)
I will first start by saying this was my first dmt experience but I an extremely experienced with lsd/mushrooms, and various rc's. And this experience is hands down, the best, most spiritual thing that has every happened to me.
So I had been on the search for the infamous 'spirit molecule'. So after years of no luck, I decided to extract some N,N-DMT from mimosa hostilis. I had hear in the extraction process to speak to the dmt and ask it what you want it to show you, so I very irresponsibly asked the dmt 'SHOW ME GOD'. Little did I know thats what he would get. I had surprisingly good results with near pure clear crystals.
So I and 2 friends and my 7 month pregnant wife (she did not partake was just there) all sat down in a beautiful field after work. At first I was very nervous about hitting the dmt. So I vaped 10mg as a tester , which upon exhale I felt indescribably connected to everything which was kaliedescoping all around untill it all slowed down.
I then felt very comfortable, no worries or stressed, so I decided a high dose of 45mg was in order.
I vaped all 45mg has hard as he can as he sat down next to his wife, then upon exhale.....boom.
When I exhaled, the trees and clouds, immediately kaliedescoped together then I felt myself rocketing out of my body upward
Then the only way I can describe it is that I had total ego loss, no memory or recollection of our eartly plane of existance, no spoken or developed language just communication through emotion that was understood.
When I got to this place the first emotion was of overwhelming peace and serinty will overwhelming love overtone, with the understood and felt message of 'your here early' by a 'Collective consiousness' that I felt I was a part of but could not control, from now on we'll call this 'god'
'god' then showed me around this heaven, which was amazing and felt like a brief glimpse at eternity, I then got this very stern fatherlike wave of communicative emotion over me and I began to feel what I CANNOT describe, it was 'God' showing me why he cant stay in that 'heaven' and letting me know why he is here and whats important in my life. I felt a strong attraction to something, and a stong sense of an inablilty to let go like I was being dragged back, extremely intense. I now knows his purpose is his family. (all of which my Wife says he was uncontrollably rubbing her pregnant belly with a huge smile)
I then began to realize he had a body and he was here, and very gently was sent back to this plane very gently and peacefully. I was then overcome with emotion and began to uncontrollably cry, something that I did expect, but nowhere near this magnitude. I continued to get these emotion unspoken yet understood messages from 'God' letting me know he was welcome back there, that 'god' just had to show me why I cant stay there, also like I said it was ego shattering, 'god' wants me to remember what I have here! I couldn't stop holding my wife and her belly and felt electricity between him and his unborn child and his wife it was incredible
In conclusion 'god' is what I got, however this completely shatters all religions pretty much nonsense. I also KNOW what I saw was real, and were in fact not hallucinations, atleast once I 'broke Through'. Also I greatly believe I experienced death. I just got a glimpse at the afterlife.
COMPLETELY LIFE CHANGING! EGO DESTROYING! MOST AMAZING THING I HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED. LEFT ME STUPIFIED! It changed me forever for the better.
Thank you spirit molecule, for changing me for the better, and relieving all worries.
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