Exactly What I Need. Rehab
Citation: whitecotton. "Exactly What I Need. Rehab: An Experience with Gabapentin (and Diazepam & Bupropion) (exp105119)". Erowid.org. May 1, 2015. erowid.org/exp/105119
As soon as I finished my last final of my first semester of college my parents scooped me up and informed me I was going to rehab. I wasn't really addicted to anything but they thought I was abusing an assortment of drugs. In the hospital my piss test was all negative. Even weed. I talked to a psychiatrist I believe who diagnosed me with 'mood disorder,' which is nice because it means I'm no longer considered 'clinically depressed' or suffering from mdd. Still, I was sent off to pine rest and found myself in the redwood unit for mental disorders and substance abuse. Not really rehab, but whatever you want to call it.
A couple days in I was being weaned off of my klonopin although I was only prescribed the month prior. I was given what I believe to be 5mg pills of valium 3-5 times a day. I know it was valium, just foggy on the dosage. Anyhow, my third day staying there I met with my doctor who talked about how bad benzo's are for depression, anxiety, or really whatever their being used for which I knew, but did not care as I fell in love with klonopins after my first .5mg pill. He gave me this stuff and went on about how it should help me in similar ways and is non addictive. So I said why the hell not, let me take em.
About twenty minutes later I was just given a valium and making my way to group creative therapy. We were drawing or painting. I remember grabbing whatever the trippiest picture was in the stack and started coloring it. I then was given my first gabapentin.
Skip 15 minutes and it hits me like a brick wall. Euphoric and anxiety free like klonopins. Uppity like adderall, without the tweak. Sociable like alcohol without being alcohol. I loved it. And I went HAM on the picture and it sits in my wallet to this day. A switch flipped in my brain, and I became a new person. The rest of my stay I somewhat enjoyed, actually talking to other patients and just feeling the exact way I've been longing for.
It's been two or three days since my release, and my doctor forgot to give me a script for them. I felt fine until today and I became pretty irritable and pissy. I got my script set, and got my pills earlier and took one asap. Waited until about 5:30 to take a second, and I feel fantastic again. I love these pills, and I'm a bit upset they can be abused (I had no idea until hitting up the experience reports) because I'm sure someday I'll take them to get high. Until then, these babies have made me into who I've wanted to be all of college. Really, I'm finally back to being myself, and I couldn't be happier.
[Reported gabapentin dose: '300mg x 3']
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