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Entering the M Hole
Methoxetamine
Citation:   Nutsnbolts. "Entering the M Hole: An Experience with Methoxetamine (exp104289)". Erowid.org. Oct 6, 2017. erowid.org/exp/104289

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
  oral LSD  
  T+ 7:00 80 mg insufflated Methoxetamine (powder / crystals)
  T+ 7:00 100 mg insufflated Methoxetamine (powder / crystals)
BODY WEIGHT: 140 lb
I've done high doses of a lot of drugs. 7g of shrooms, 1500ug of LSD, over 1000mg of DXM, etc. I've never experienced anything like this though. I knew that holing was going to be an experience like nothing else but this just blew my mind in so many different ways.

On Friday night I decided to trip on acid. I took 500ug around 9pm and had a few rough moments but overall it was a good experience. Around 4am I felt like I was sober enough to handle some MXE. I've been using it quit a bit recently and would say I'm pretty experienced.

I weighed out roughly 80mg and snorted it all at once. I have a decent tolerance to MXE so I knew it wouldn't do TOO much. After it took effect I decided that I wanted to attempt reaching an M Hole and poured out the rest of the bag which was probably around 100mg and snorted it. I talked to a friend on facebook about what I was doing for a while and knew I was in for a trip about 15 minutes later. I sent him one last message telling him I wouldn't be able to type anymore in a few minutes and laid down. I was scared for a bit and tried to keep a grasp on reality. I thought I was about to die so I opened my phone and typed a message for whoever found me if I did and put it beside me on the bed. That's the last thing I remember.

I felt like I was floating so I sat up. I thought at the time that I was still conscious because I was looking around my room. I realized later that my eyes weren't open and I was hallucinating sitting up in bed and looking around. I noticed that my body was rocking as if I was floating in water so I sat back. I'm not sure what this water signified but it helped me a lot through this experience. I feel like it grounded me to reality a bit and helped me stay calm. When I was floating on this water my mind was completely clear. My body was useless but it was as if I could pull my mind out of the situation and think extremely clearly. I wanted to go deeper so I focused and submerged myself in this water.

When I went under there was nothing at first. I was floating in a void for a while but eventually I started teleporting to different events in my life
I was floating in a void for a while but eventually I started teleporting to different events in my life
, places I'd never been, etc. I experienced some events from a different person's perspective and some from my own. Some of the places I went were other worldly. I flew over the hospital in the intensive care helicopter I saw after leaving the hospital when my friend had a psychotic episode from LSD I gave him, I floated through what I can only call a psychedelic black hole, and visited my grandmother before she died (something I never got to do).

One of the most vivid things I recall is when I realized I wasn't going to die. I was flying towards this light in the void just knowing that I had died and what I was experiencing was my life flashing before my eyes and myself passing on. When I reached this light I realized it was the surface of a body of water and I was floating under a boardwalk. The light I saw was the sun shining through the spaces between the boards. An extremely strong sense of peace and tranquility washed over me and the guilt coming from putting my family through my death was lifted from my shoulders.

Coming out of this wasn't a gradual thing. One second I was in this hole and then the next thing I know I open my eyes to my room. I laid in bed for a few more hours trying to focus on this water again but I could never get back to where I was before so I got out of bed and forced myself to eat. I didn't feel completely like myself for the rest of the day and wasn't sober enough to drive until around 4 or 5pm.

I really would love to try this again and maybe get my hands on some ketamine. M holing was great but it lasted way too long and left me really tired, not myself, and slightly off balance the next day. Hopefully I can prepare myself for it next time and avoid thinking I've overdosed.

Exp Year: 2014ExpID: 104289
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Oct 6, 2017Views: 1,845
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Methoxetamine (527) : Combinations (3), General (1), Alone (16)

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