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Lost The Magic Ten Years Later
Citation:   Strike. "Lost The Magic Ten Years Later: An Experience with MDMA (exp103517)". Sep 16, 2016.

T+ 0:00
120 mg oral MDMA (powder / crystals)
  T+ 1:30 80 mg oral MDMA (powder / crystals)
I have 'lost the magic', and I am beyond hurt that this has happened.

I am a veteran user of MDMA. My history with the substance began at the age of nineteen. Within, a year I consumed more than 100 pills and countless grams of pure MDMA. During the peak of my use, I would have to consume at least four pills, to obtain the experience I knew from my first few times.

I ceased use after an unpleasant MDMA overdose
I ceased use after an unpleasant MDMA overdose
, resulting in projectile vomitting, blackouts and what I am told uncontrolled anger. However, I only remember the vomitting and pleasant effects.

It has now been ten years, since my last dose of MDMA. I obtained one gram of MDMA. Reagent test went straight purple and immediately to black. The product I had was MDMA.

I dosed 120mg initially, in a home setting, with all the party essentials; music, vibe, glow sticks, vapor rub, etc. I was beyond prepared to make this a great experience. I felt for a period of two minutes, tingling similar to the onset of the come up; however, this two minute experience was over 1.5 hours after my first dose. I then followed up with an 80mg dose. Nothing further took place.

I have lost the magic! I take no medication that would interact with MDMA. I began researching the next day. I stumbled upon the serotonin syndrome. You guessed it. I have all the symptoms. For close to a decade, I had anxiety, tremors, obsessions, irritability and so forth. At this point, I am happy to know why I am not like most people.

Play safe and don't lose the magic!

Exp Year: 2014ExpID: 103517
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: 28
Published: Sep 16, 2016Views: 1,427
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