Citation: deadrelatives. "S Isomer Meditation: An Experience with S-Ketamine & Meditation (exp103039)". Erowid.org. Oct 2, 2015. erowid.org/exp/103039
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Some background: Ketamine is commonly sold in racemic form, R+S isomers mixed. In a clinical study participants found that S-Isomer was almost always associated with positive feelings, while racemic was more mixed. The R-isomer inhibits the breakdown of the s-isomer leading to a longer, more drawn-out comedown. The R-isomer also contributes to visual distortions and delusions of grander that don't seem to be exist with s-isomer.
Every sense I heard of s-isomer ketamine I knew I had to try it. I managed to find an extremely clean source of s-isomer k and obtained a gram. I insuflated about 100 mg on three occasions and then did 200mg to test the strength. I got very close to the hole on that trip. S-Isomer is interesting in that it is about 1.5 times as powerful as racemic ketamine (S and R isomer ketamine mixed together) but at the same time it is not a deliriant in any sense, which is very unlike racemic. Even at that high dose (my tolerance was very low) I could still see clearly and think completely clearly. Thoughts came and went and I reviewed them all in a totally positive light. Everything was good for a time. It was also highly pleasurable to feel my body melt away and be at peace with my mind. During this trip I had a musing to try meditation while under the influence of S-isomer K. That led me to this experience.
I had a dry apple cider about an hour before taking the ketamine, and hadn't eaten for at least 5 hours. I laid out 150 mg in four lines, two for each nostril and swept the floor and laid a towel down to sit and meditate. I queued some 'meditation tones' from youtube, as I find these to be extremely beneficial to meditation.
t= :00 insuflated two lines, one in each nostril laid back on the couch and let the drip slowly drip down my throat.
t= :05 felt first effects, insuflated next two lines and again laid back until I felt the drip in my throat. I then moved to the ground and assumed meditation position.
t= :10-40 (s-isomer doesn't last long so time stamps won't be used from here on)
I sat, listening to meditation tones, this one was, I believe, astral projection meditation tones. I felt my body fade away in the usual k sense, and I tried to quiet my mind. Patterns began to emerge behind my closed eyes. I saw a fire, and a woman kneeling behind it. I remember feeling that this was the mother, I'm not really sure what that means, but that's what I felt.
I could see things, as if they came through my eyelids. Except they were behind a veil. A thin, dark piece of fabric kept the scenes dim. I saw a blue eyed-elephant, so close that I could only see one half of its face. I saw a soldier. I saw cellular life spinning and bumping into one another.
I felt the vibrations of the earth at that point. I felt so intimately connected to earth that it's impossible to describe. Usually I have strange musings and the desire to write when I am on k, but this time I felt relaxation unlike anything I have felt before. I heard the thought come into my mind that this is the most relaxed I have ever been and a sort of bliss entered my spirit at that moment. When I opened my eyes thirty minutes had passed and I was pretty much sober, although I felt absolutely amazing.
At that moment I realized that I had to share this with others for the betterment of humanity. I heard several thoughts during my meditation, that seemed to come from outside my body. Thoughts like: 'the earth needs you' I believe that doing this is something important that many people should experience.
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