DOSE:

20 g

oral

Morning Glory

(seeds)

I came home from a friends house feeling depressed and outrageously bored, and decided to ground up the remainder of my heavenly blue morning glory seeds. I had bought 3 ounces of them and used a decent amount with a friend, and another decent amount by myself. I wanted to take the rest after having a breakthrough/ego death.

I wasn't scared, nor excited, but I wanted something intense and insane to occur.

I took about a thousand or more seeds. I sat in my computer chair eating cheddar fries and listening to Acid Mothers Temple while I patiently waited for something to happen.

Then I managed to go directly from any fear, boredom, excitement, entertainment, into this phase of transcendence. I had transcended the idea that any theories or beliefs hold truth, and that we are all dependent on reimprinting ourselves or evolving on our own terms for the benefit of contentment.

I am sitting here, or walking there, or consuming this, or fucking that, and all I am waiting to do is experience the moment of death and maybe the clarity that exists afterward. If there is even such a thing as clarity. And while I do this, I just want to love and experience peace. And listen to Terence Mckenna, and read books by Timothy Leary and Robert Anton Wilson, and completely live in a fantasy world while ignoring what the world is doing to itself that people are looking at through the eyes of negativity and hatred.

I am here waiting for the next big thing. And I'm neither sad nor happy. I am just here.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 102634
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Mar 26, 2020	Views: 44
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