DOSE:	1 hit	oral	LSD	(blotter / tab)
		smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

168 lb

LSD forced me to confront my depression and anxiety issue:

My experience with drugs can be summed up with a lot of weed smoking and occasional ecstasy use. I had tried magic mushrooms before but only had a tiny effect as I only had a tiny amount. After having one good experience with LSD I decided it was time to try it again and use the knowledge gained from my previous experience to have a lot more fun with acid. Unfortunately this trip would turn out to be a complete and utter nightmare for me.

It was a Friday evening and I received a text from my friend telling me he had an empty house. I assumed he was gathering a group of people to come to his and chill, maybe smoke a bit of weed and watch some films. I decided to take a tab of 300ug LSD with me, unsure whether I would take it or not.

I arrived at my friend's and it turned out to just be him and me for the night, everyone else was unavailable. Disappointed by this, I decided “fuck it” and dropped the full 300ug tab. Bad idea. My friend smoked some weed and fell asleep on the sofa and I began to trip heavily after about an hour. I got quite nice visuals at first, pictures around his house were growing and shrinking, the carpets had Celtic cross patterns appear in them and spots on the wooden floor began to grow and shrink. It was really quite pleasant as I was calm and relaxed. My friend woke up and we went outside to smoke some weed. We went through a total of three joints between me, him and his brother. The visuals were still pleasant at this point, the bricks on his wall were moving and patterns were appearing on his neighbour's houses. I looked at the white stones that covered his driveway and in the darkness it was like looking at beautiful snowy mountain tops.

After finishing the joints we went inside and at this point the trip turned sour as the effects of the cannabis kicked in. In the past few weeks I had been diagnosed with depression and had just begun counselling sessions with the possibility of going on anti depressants. Recently, smoking weed on its own had seemed to bring out a lot of my depression and anxiety issues. So when we got into the house the combination of cannabis and LSD pulled the depression and anxiety issues to the forefront of my mind . My brain felt physically weighed down from the negative thoughts flooding my brain, I began to panic and breathe quickly and heavily. My friend had fallen asleep on the sofa again at this point so I was left alone. Knowing I was trapped in this trip for about 8 more hours terrified me and brought on even more panic. I had read online that drinking milk can reduce the effects of an acid trip so I headed for the kitchen. I downed 2 pints of milk very quickly and instantly felt like I was going to vomit.

I headed to the bathroom and locked the door. I didn't puke but I was suddenly overwhelmed by a feeling of claustrophobia as the bathroom was very small. In this bathroom my friend had family photos of his grandparents and older relatives which were morphing in front of me. I tried taking a piss but I became hyper-aware that the photos were judging me. I was shaking and confused, I accidentally pissed a bit on my trousers which resulted in me saying “fuck this”. I escaped the bathroom and woke up my friend. I told him the trip was over and that I was going home (he hasn't got any LSD experience so he doesn't know anything about the length of a trip or afterglow/comedown etc). He saw me out and I began what should have been a 30 minute walk home.

It was now about 3am and I had been tripping for about 6 hours. The main part of the trip was coming to an end and the visuals were much more chilled on the walk home, mainly the ones I saw when I began tripping. As I walked I tried listening to music, mainly trance. It was nice but eventually I decided that I preferred the silence of the night. My head no longer felt as heavy but I was still having overwhelming negative thoughts. Most of these thoughts were me calling myself pathetic and a waste of space. So yeah, not the most enlightening LSD-induced thoughts. On the walk home I felt as though I was addressing negative issues about myself I suppressed when sober. I arrived home after what seemed like a 2 hour walk home. My thoughts turned more positive when I got into my bed. Still addressing issues but in a more positive light so I felt the afterglow was much more relaxing . I watched Friends on Netflix and fell asleep about 7am. I awoke at 4pm feeling completely fine.

From my trip I learned what a terrifying substance LSD can be if it's not respected. The overwhelming negative thoughts have forced me to address many issues that were raised now that I'm sober. I won't be taking acid for a long time and the next time I do, I'll make sure I'm not the only one tripping and my mental health will hopefully be much better.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 102194
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Nov 27, 2024	Views: Not Supported
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