H.B. Woodrose & Nitrous Oxide
Citation: RastaMan. "To Insanity and Back Again: An Experience with H.B. Woodrose & Nitrous Oxide (exp101872)". Erowid.org. May 29, 2021. erowid.org/exp/101872
Dose: 10 seeds
Body Weight: 90kg
Male age 36
Time: 22:37 Had H.B.W concoction after drinking ginger and honey with hot water (as I heard this helped reduce nausea) n.b. The tea was made 3-4 hours prior with boiling water so as to remove chlorine, fluoride and other chemicals then lemon juice was added to assist in the extraction of L.S.A from the seeds into solution. The concoction was then placed in two glasses. One for me and one for my cousin. We put 10 seeds in each. Which were previously ground with a coffee grinder. They had no outer husk which I would have removed if present.
After drinking the concoction and the ginger and honey tea we both had a beer. We then both had a cone of marijuana and a couple of cigerettes while we waited for it to take effect.
22:55 Starting to feel light body buzz. My cousin went outside and spewed violently for ten minutes or so. At this point I felt fine. No nausea.
22:59 Had nitrous with balloon. It was pretty cool. Similar to nitrous with LSD or mushrooms. Auditory and visual reverberating waves of fragmented input and physiological body sensation as well.
00:04 Definitely tripping now!! Colours are much brighter. Acid like sensations. Outlines of everything becoming fuzzy and less defined and appear to be shimmering and slightly moving.
00:31 Very dry mouth for last hour at least. Drinking lots of water. A seemingly unquenchable thirst.
00:37 A sensation or feeling of a deeper understanding of the universe. A feeling of being one with everything and everyone. It is becoming hard to write.
00:42 A feeling of being connected at the deepest level to everything. In a sense my entire being becoming a connected sub atomic particle level extension of the multiverse.
00:47 Still an unquenchable thirst despite drinking heaps of water. About two litres so far.
00:50 I ate a piece of chocolate... ha ha forgot how to spell chocolate. Obviously slowed cognitive function.
00:54 Had nitrous while lying on the floor. It looked and felt like I was leaving my body through a giant tunnel of eyes surrounded by fire going from my forehead up into the sky seemingly with no end.
01:29 Basic motor skills difficult at this point. Had a nitrous bulb with no balloon. It did nothing. Seemingly because I got distracted from it and didn’t focus on it at all.
01:36 I can almost think myself sober and then back to tripping really hard. Things seem to change dramatically based on perception of what is in my environment. Other people, objects etc.
12:52 Well it’s the next day now. The last part of the trip got very dark, confusing, scary and introspective. I didn’t feel like writing anything at the time. I will try and sum up what happened, how I felt then and how I feel now. Firstly – now I feel pretty scattered, very vague and still quite disconnected with myself. I finally crashed about 03:00 ish. I woke at 07:00 to go to the toilet then went back to sleep till now, nearly 1.
I didn’t really feel like myself again till the next day. Thank god I did because during the trip I felt like had gone insane and would never be the same again. What I experienced between 02:00 and 03:00 I will try and explain. Up until now I had been having a great time. I felt connected to myself, the collective consciousness and the multiverse. Then at some point about an hour before I slept I felt like something went snap in my brain. At the time I feared I'd gone insane and broken something permanently. I felt like I was going to be like that forever. I had had similar experiences a few times on LSD. Never once did I truly believe I would not be fine again after the trip ended. This trip was different though.
I had had similar experiences a few times on LSD. Never once did I truly believe I would not be fine again after the trip ended. This trip was different though.
During one of these LSD experiences I became disconnected with myself and could not communicate clearly with anybody. It was weird because friends around me seemed worried or concerned that I would be in that disconnected state indefinitely. Some saying things like “I'm glad I was here at the end” and “I’m glad I got to spend time with you before this happened” others seemed to mock me and make fun of the whole thing. It was a very weird experience. I found the whole thing quite comical really. Although at the time I couldn’t communicate to anybody much at all. Despite what others believed. I never felt at any point that I would not be back to my old self after it finished and I of course was. This LSA experience even without others doubting my sanity was somehow very different.
I really was totally convinced that my consciousness, my eternal soul had left my body and was to never return. It goes against rational thought but at the time seemed so real and very, very scary to say the least. Before I finally managed to fall asleep I convinced myself that this was it. I had gone insane and was never going to be sane again. I even said to my cousin “I think that’s it mate, I’ve done my dash, I will never be the same again”.
ONE WEEK LATER: This turned out to be far from the truth of course. I feel more myself than I have in a long time. I am happy, healthy and thinking more clearly than I have in ages. Whether my consciousness went to another dimension or it just felt like it left I'm not sure? I was initially really keen for my next LSA – H.B.W seeds or other experience. But now I am not so keen. I think I will do it again one day. After much more research, talking to others and personal contemplation. I am certainly in no hurry to any psychedelic in the near future. A wonderful experience overall but one that certainly had a dark confusing and scary twist at the end. It was certainly a beautiful soul caressing dance followed by an overwhelming feeling of insanity and then back again.
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