Citation: gretalbear. "I Realised I Was Gurning and Clenching My Jaw: An Experience with Modafinil & Fluoxetine (exp101811)". Erowid.org. Sep 11, 2018. erowid.org/exp/101811
I have been taking fluoxetine on and off for nearly ten years. It makes me feel ‘comfortable’ neither jumping for joy nor miserable which is what it is supposed to do, it does however make me drowsy and my concentration and memory are affected. I take it for depression and anxiety, most recently brought on by the stress of managing uni work when I am a chronic procrastinator.
So it is time for me to hand in the first draft of my dissertation of 10000 words and I have 2500, so I am desperately thinking ‘I need more time! How can I get more time?!’ then I remembered an article I read about modafinil use among medical students cramming for exams and think maybe it will work for dissertation focus too. So I got hold of a couple of tablets to try from a friend. I googled the interaction with fluoxetine and saw that some places say there is a mild interaction but the majority of sources said it was ok to use both at the same time, even that some people are deliberately prescribed modafinil to boost the effects of the fluoxetine. My friend gave me two 100mg tablets and advised that I don’t double drop, I asked him if he thinks I should start with a half of 50mg and see how it goes and he said “no don’t worry 100mg is the dose you wont notice it at less but don’t double drop!”
Now, in my experience when I have been told a dosage to take by a male friend it has always been waaaay too much for me
in my experience when I have been told a dosage to take by a male friend it has always been waaaay too much for me
so I erred on the side of caution and took a half, then popped out to do the grocery shopping. As I was walking around the town I noticed very little effects. It was a pretty cold day and just before I took the tablet I remarked how cold my hands were, 30 mins later my hands were toasty warm (they’re always cold) so I guessed that this must be a side effect. I stopped for a coffee and also had the other half of the tablet.
On my way home from shopping feeling a bit disappointed at my lack of amazing superhuman focus I realised that I had frequently referred to my shopping list (something which I never do) and had stuck to the things on it and not bought any ‘impulse buys’ (something which I always do) so it seemed to be giving me some focus to stick to my intentions. Also, shopping isn’t really the right set and setting for modafinil. When I got home I was still a little disappointed because I wasn’t raring to go with my dissertation, but without really thinking about it I had got on with my other uni work, a drawing, and was furiously working at it for maybe half an hour before I realized that I was being focussed! And the drawing came out really well. Probably the best drawing I have done. So after I had confirmation that the modafinil was in fact working I opened up my computer and proceeded to spend approximately five hours researching sources to back up the first paragraph of my dissertation. So I was maybe not so focussed there, or I was but I just don’t know how to write a dissertation.
Then I started to yawn so I thought I might take my second fluoxetine of the day (40mg split into 2 doses) then a couple of hours drawing later I decide to take the other modafinil and have another attempt at my dissertation. Nothing happened for a while and then I realised I was gurning and clenching my jaw like I was on MDMA, and also feeling fairly anxious in a similar way I used to when I would ‘come up’ from an ecstacy pill. I then started to feel a general sadness like the beginnings of an MDMA come-down, then a sudden burst of up feelings, then down, then up, etc… it is now 4am and I am wide awake. I have done one successful drawing, one successful paragraph and my jaw is pushed over to one side like it is dislocated. I hope that goes tomorrow. And I hope I don’t have a come down.
I think I would take it again but stick to 100mg and perhaps forego the 2nd fluoxetine dose.
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