DOSE: T+ 0:00	100 mg	oral	MDMA
T+ 3:00	100 mg	oral	MDMA
T+ 5:00	75 mg	oral	MDMA

BODY WEIGHT:

127.5 lb

Hello,

I'd like to share with you a few experiences that I have had on the drug MD[MA] and attempt to explain how those experiences have helped me to become my true self.

I am currently coming up on my 3rd and final dose of the night, approx 75mg but I couldn't say with any certainty.

Of all the drugs that I have experienced; cannabis, Metocin (4-HO-MET), Shrooms (Psylocin) and Alcohol... This is by far the most eye-opening, mind-blowing substance that I have ever laid my hands on, that holds true therapeutic value.

My first MDMA experience was on a Ninja Turtle pill in August 2013. Since then, I have began my true awakening. I am rising up in the levels of consciousness, gradually becoming more and more aware of my self and therefore the Universe around me.

My first experience was the most mind-blowing. I remember sitting in a large field, with crisp clouds on the horizon as the Sun was making its descent. The only word I can think of to describe it is 'heavenly'. It showed me something that had been inside me the whole time. I have theorised that the chemical unlocks your heart space and allows the love to flow freely and without/with less resistance. Meaning we open up to our true selves, or our higher self.

Realisations/Lessons that I have taken from experiences on the drug:

- The value of truth and honesty. That it's important to be completely honest at all times, for each lie you tell adds distance between you and the 'truth'.
- The truth lies within you. Within every single one of us.
- I am not a 'human'. I am a spiritual being have a 'human' experience.
- Time doesn't exist unless we create it. It's merely a measurement of something that just can't be measured with any kind of scientific instrument.
- Science and spirituality go hand-in-hand.
- There is no such thing as impossible.
- What you focus on will expand.
- Your heart is your direct connection to the Universe and the higher dimensions.
- You can only help someone who wants to be helped.

I have been experimenting with the drug's therapeutic value, by taking it with close friends in comfortable environments. In doing so, I have witnessed at least 4 beings begin to overcome their fear and re-connect with themselves. One in particular is showing a huge amount of progress in a very short space of 'time'.

It's truly incredible. I feel completely 'sober' in a sense, that I can think so clearly. I feel so pure, so at peace, content with 'being'.

With the understanding that:

- My body is just a vessel.
- Reality is merely a collage of vibration giving an illusion of solidity.

I can determine that the drug is most definitely assisting me in my ascent. Though not vital, I think it does help speed up the process. It unlocks information that is already inside you and allows you to take it back with you.

But imagine going from a 10 megabyte connection down to a 256k modem, it's going to take a lot longer for the same amount of information to transfer. So you have to be patience and keep your focus back in 'sober' reality.

You will still have to face negative vibes at some point, but it's life's way of helping to strengthen your mind, body and soul. Look at it in a positive light. Stop existing in the brain, which is filled with junk. Start existing in your heart, allow the love to start flowing through you, energizing you, healing you, repairing your soul.

MeDicine, is what I like to call it.

I feel inspired. I feel powerful. I feel like I now have a presence within a room.

I have began activating my third eye through meditation and focus. I learned to see energy using a candle, staring at it with my peripheral vision until I could see the energy interacting around the flame. A truly incredible sight, that I illustrated a couple of days later.

Every time I experience the drug, I come back to reality a little higher up with a lot more information and more realisations. Only the rate at which they occur is seemingly multiplying. It helps to write it down or make notes of some kind for future reference.

I feel that I have said enough.

I make sure I receive it in crystal form. If it's powdered - I don't take it. I learnt the difficult way, didn't put me off though. However it may well of done if it was my first experience. Far better than taking pills.

Keep in mind that your beliefs, your thoughts and feelings will mould an entirely unique experience for yourself and so you should not 'expect' it to happen as it did for me. We are all different.

Peace and Love

The Leopard

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 101583
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Dec 31, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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