Citation: Chrysalis. "Enormous Insectoid Wheel: An Experience with Methoxetamine & Salvia divinorum (10x extract) (exp101407)". Erowid.org. Oct 13, 2015. erowid.org/exp/101407
I had been taking MXE daily (irresponsibly) for many weeks, usually repeated doses of 30-50mg orally every few hours. Had also smoked salvia extract on a few occasions over the past year and had variable experiences that were neutral/frightening and mostly involved feeling stuck half-way between realities, or in a dream-like cartoon world.
On this particular day, I was feeling very introspective and reflective as a result of my usual MXE doses. Suddenly I had a powerful feeling (almost like a voice had whispered to me) to take some salvia.
My initial reaction was, 'No way! Too scared.' But after some strange encouragement from within myself, and a strong feeling that I just 'should', I agreed to try it.
With much trepidation, I inhaled and then quickly lay back. (Again, very irresponsible on my part, should have had a sitter!)
This salvia experience was very different. I normally get a 2d, cartoon-type dream-like world. This time, I was catapulted into space, actually felt like I was orbiting around the Earth literally (blackness all around, stars, etc).
An entity was there and I was filled with the conviction that it was God, but it was so alien and frightening that I felt a sense of despair. The only way I can describe it is that it was like an enormous insectoid wheel (with spokes) that was slowly turning. If you ever seen Giger artwork (guy who designed the alien in the movie Alien), it was kind of like that... cold, organic yet mechanical, alien, beautiful, and terrifying.
I could sense its mind, and it was cold, analytical, filled with thoughts that were utterly strange and profound. Some sort of voice reassured me, and my own mind tried to reason that of course if there was a God of all things, it would not be human-like, after all humans were only one of many, many creatures (discovered and undiscovered), and the creator of them all would not be similar to just one species.
The wheel approached me as if to roll over me, and I knew that this was going to mean the end of my existence somehow. I was afraid, but something inside me reassured me that it was going to be alright, just relax.
I did try to relax as told, and 'woke up' out of the experience as instantly as I had been shot into it. Felt a profound sense of peace and calm, and a kind of inner congratulation that I had learned something I needed to know.
However, am in no hurry to do it again!
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