I was going through a wierd time in my life and was in need of a new experince. At first I thought I was just going to drop some LSD again. But the town was incredibly dry.
A 'friend' told me that I should try tripping off of dramamine. Usually I research chemcials througly but I was so out of control with differnt situations that I thought, 'why not'. I purchased a tube of the horrid motion sickness chemical. I took 12 pills before heading to a larger city, to look for apartments, that was 2 hours away. BIG MISTAKE! About 45 min. into the drive I started feeling all sorts of 'bad weird'. I felt as if though I was choking on my own saliva or tounge; I couldn't decide which it was. My breathing started to quicken it's pace. Then I felt the starting signs of a panic attack. I turned to my friend who was driving and told him I wanted to go back. He ingnored me and kept driving for a bit. 'Calm down. You've handled intense acid trips before, just relax.', these were the words I slightly told myself but it didn't do much good.
Soon I was in a full blown panic attack and the chemical was taking hold. My friend told me he'd stop at a hardee's and get something in my stomach. I freaked out hardcore in the drive through line and told him to head back. Seeing how utterly frightened I was he turned back towards my house (An hour away). He gave me an ice tea which I tried to sip. The rest of the drive was pure and unrelenting hell. I was on the verge of total insanity. I tried throwing up but that didn't help at all. I only mumbled a few frightened phrases as the car sped on. I kept thinking that all my existence was completly worthless and that I was nothing more than chemicals that were now going haywire. I have had similar thougts on LSD at times but they were not this scary, I usually found acid intropection very intersting and sort of fun. I started worring about my heart. I could barly move my mucles. Circulation was slowing down. I begged him to take me to the ER but luckily he refused.
When we finally reached my house I gathered up all my strengh and stumbled inside. At first I started to look for my charcoal tabs to soak my system, but the chemical was already in my blood stream. I laid on my bed while my friend got me some water. If I stood up then I would get insanely dizzy. Visuals much like a twisted evil mushroom trip may give a person. Things would twist and surry about. Usually I love those when I am on LSD or mushrooms. But this time they only added to my fear. I would see my friend in another room only to have him come from a differnet hallway. I started to make phone calls on an imagenary cell phone. This all seemed very real to me at the time.
After two intense hours I finally calmed down and watched television. I could feel blood rush thoughout my body if I would stand to sunddenly. I was inceridbly greatful to my friend who stuck by me during this time. It took few days to get back to 100%.
I will never touch this chemical again. I still believe that experimenting with chemicals is worthwhile and benifitial if done responsibly. And if it's available at wal-mart, it's probably best left on the shelf. Now I know a fear that I never want to revisit again. This was pure hell for $3.99.
