by S. Simplicissimus
About 24 hours ago I took what was probably a half an ounce of Kratom leaves. Maybe it was more. It was certainly more than the recommended 'strong' dosage that my supplier gave, and more than I had ever taken before. I regretted it.
I had taken Kratom on three occasions before and had very positive experiences. So, last night, I took a huge amount. It was a batch of dried Kratom leaves and chewed, then swallowed them. After about an hour I began to feel the effects: a sort of drowsy, euphoric feeling and a sense of losing my balance. It wasn't bad at first, in fact, it was enjoyable. But after a couple more hours I realized I had taken too much. I had a little bit of itching and started to feel very nauseated (which I had never felt on my previous doses).
I tried to lay in bed and go to sleep, but then I started to be afraid for some reason that I might not wake up. I don't know if this fear was valid or not, but that's how I felt. Also, I was so hot and sweating so profusely it was hard to fall asleep anyway even though I was immensely tired. I finally fell asleep at around 5 or 6 am (I took my Kratom dose at about 10pm last night).
I awoke a few hours later and I felt like I had a really bad hangover and had much difficulty doing a lot of things, like getting dressed, taking a shower, and taking out the trash. I stayed in bed and slept off and most of the day and felt so drained of energy. It was even difficult to drink water and even though I did not feel thirsty, I knew I needed to rehydrate but each time I drank a glass of water, I felt very nauseated again.
By 7 this evening, about 21 hours since I had taken my dose, I was able to go outside for a walk, which did me a world of good. And now I feel like I'm actually coming down from the high and its poisonous aftereffects.
This experience has given me a new perspective on the use of psychoactive substances. In short, I've decided to take a break from them for a while. I have tried marijuana, salvia, and nitrous a few times (never together, but on separate occasions) and I have been drinking regularly, but I'm going to stop, at least for a while. I am throwing away the Kratom I had bought, it's just not worth tempting fate again.
