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Experienced the Heart of the Multiverse
Ecstasy
Citation:   Psiphi. "Experienced the Heart of the Multiverse: An Experience with Ecstasy (exp4641)". Erowid.org. Jan 15, 2001. erowid.org/exp/4641

 
DOSE:
130 mg oral MDMA (pill / tablet)
BODY WEIGHT: 130 lb
This was my first MDMA experience. Having now taken it over 20 times in the last 12 years, I am convinced that there was something else in the mixture besides MDMA. I received my package wrapped in aluminum foil. Back then, the E that was going around was not in pill form - it was a white powder. I first heard of MDMA in 1986 and was very eager to try it. I heard about it entirely within the context of emotional clensing and therapy. So it was with this spirit that I took it alone, not grokking what I was in for.

5:45am: Because of the weird hours I kept I took my dose at around 5am. It was late May, 1988. After about 45 minutes, I began to feel very warm and fuzzy. Having taken LSD about 30 times already, nothing quite prepared my for what was to happen next. Just moments after I began to feel anything at all I was very suddenly propelled into hyperspace! Rather than what can be a nerve racking ride to peak on LSD, this rocket ride into hyperspace was the most beautifully sublime thing I have ever felt. Everything in the Universe suddenly became infinitely perfect. I saw what looked like the center of the multiverse - a chrysanthenum of millions of folding, morphing, fractalized, multicolored, multidemisonal geometries each containing other universes of higher intelligence and infinite love. This unfolding seemed to go on without end. I had no sense of my body - I was fully immersed. It was if I had merged with the heart of God/Multiverse. I rejoiced.

6:15am: I became aware of my surroundings again and merged with the deep core of my being with unconditional love. I soon explored rapidly what seemed like all my of childhood wounds and they become soothed and healed with this love.

7:30am: Being alone, I felt compelled to call my friends and family. I ended up calling my best friend and I apologized and forgave him for any ill-will that lay between us.

9:30am: I felt cold, so I went out to the Hot Tub to soak for a bit. For this first time in my life I saw gloriously beautiful aura's around everything. After about an hour I returned to baseline.

Having done MDMA a lot since then, this experience was totally unique. My suspicion is that I had taken at least a combination of MDMA + MDA.

Exp Year: 1988ExpID: 4641
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jan 15, 2001Views: 4,783
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