| DOSE: |
8 mg |
smoked |
5-MeO-DMT
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(powder / crystals) |
This was my second experiment with 5-Meo-DMT. My first had been with 4mg and I had enjoyed it. I had thought that 4mg was intense, but it did nothing to prepare me for this experience. I have used many psychedelics in the past and I can honestly say, without any doubt, that I have never tripped so hard in my life as I did with 8mg of 5-Meo-DMT.
I smoked the dose on aluminum foil with a straw. As soon as I inhaled I began to trip, and put the apparatus down as quickly as possible and laid back on the floor. I held the smoke for about 25 seconds, and by the time I exhaled I was tripping unbelievably hard, and that was just the beginning. Unlike my previous experience, I was having strong LSD-like visuals; my textured ceiling was crawling at what I would roughly estimate to be about a bajillion mph. It was like watching one of those time lapse movies of a hive of bees, where two days of motion are compressed into a few minutes. Within 5-10 seconds the experience had become so intense that I felt the need to close my eyes in order to maintain. I focused on my breathing as a way to keep some sort of sanity - I was trying deep, slow breaths but ended up gasping like an asthmatic. Oh, well...at least the gasps were rhythmic, which I believe helped.
As in my previous experience, I reverted to the fetal position. As I rolled over I opened my eyes, and immediately wished that I hadn't; every surface was boiling, seething, sizzling, melting, and dissolving, all at the same time. I quickly shut my eyes and began to pray that I would survive this. I was terrified. I was certain that I would have a seizure, the intensity was unbearable. And then, suddenly, I was able to recognize this as a negative line of thought, and more importantly I was able to change it. I tried to convince myself that I was enjoying it - and it worked! I felt my mouth stretch into a grin. I was utterly powerless in the grip of 5-Meo-DMT, and I LOVED it. The intensity was hitting me in waves, a quick pulse with only a fraction of a second between beats, and each time I felt as if my entire being were disintegrating and then being reassembled, over and over again. I believe I tried to say something out loud, but I don't know what it was or if I succeeded in making any noise, because I was alone.
Then, almost as quickly as it had come on, I was coming down. I opened my eyes and things still looked distorted, but it was perceivably diminishing. I rolled on my back, still gasping, and said something like 'Oh my fucking god'. The mental effects departed quickly, but the physical sensation stuck around for a while; my body felt like a guitar string, humming and twitching and shaking like a leaf. To be honest, the coming down felt like nothing so much as the first few seconds after a really great orgasm. I suppose both experiences overload the nervous system, so there's a certain similarity. I laughed out loud, relieved that the trip was over but grateful that it had taken place. I really wasn't able to move much for five minutes or so; after that I sat up against a wall. I talked to myself, to make sure that I was still sane (haha!). Finally I stood and walked around, looked at myself in the mirror (my eyes were very red and dilated). I felt a little nauseous at first and I thought I might throw up, but I didn't.
At the time of this writing it's about T + 40 minutes. I'm still shaking, especially my legs and my hands. I have the tryptamine taste in my mouth and my throat hurts vaguely, while I have an intense pain in my head. But I can't stop smiling. I see 5-Meo-DMT described as 'chemical terror' or 'chemical bliss'; for me it was both. The peak was more terrifying than any experience I've ever had, it's sheer intensity was almost unbearable, but...there was bliss, too. My thoughts on 5-Meo-DMT are that I will probably use it at this dosage again. I do not think I will ever try it at a higher dosage, nor do I think I will try it again at a lower dosage - I have a feeling that this experience took away my ability to enjoy a less intense version of 5-Meo-DMT. If I ever do decide to try a higher dose, I will NOT do it without a sitter. It's likely that I will find a sitter even to use it again at this dosage. It's been said before but I'll say it again: this is a very serious entheogen, the most serious I've encountered, so use it carefully.
